It's a boy!

Baby Jett

That's right! Bryer will have a baby brother by the end of December or beginning of January. We already have his name picked out: Jett Alexander. Time to pack away all of Bryer's old girl things and get all new boy clothes. I'm about 21 weeks and this pregnancy is moving right along! My appointment and ultrasound went well and everything looks normal so far. For that I am grateful.

I'll admit, when I first became pregnant I had mixed feelings. I was still happy but had all these worries running through my head. I worried that it would take something away from Bryer because she is still so little. I worried that I wouldn't be able to take care of them both being so close in age, that it would be too much for me to handle. I wondered how I could possibly do it all on my own since we had just taken the traveling job. I had planned to wait three years before I had another child and this wasn't my plan at all. It was the end of the semester, we were busy with finals and graduation,  and all the while caring for my one year old. There were times I felt so sick and tired but I had to keep going. Following graduation we picked up and moved to another state. After the move there were days I couldn't get off the couch. I was exhausted. The pregnancy combined with all of that sucked the energy right out of me. I seriously thought something was wrong with me.

But it didn't last forever. After we got settled in things started to slow down. I started feeling better as I came into my second trimester. And as soon as I started showing and feeling little baby kicks I instantly grew a bond with this child. It became real to me. I have this precious baby growing inside of me and I'm going to be it's mommy. It is going to complete my world.

I've grown a lot stronger and found out a lot of things about myself through all of this combined with CJ being away. I learned that I could love another baby just as much as I love Bryer, and that Bryer would be okay, even better with a sibling close by her side. I learned that it was okay that things didn't go how I planned because God had something even better planned for me. I learned that sometimes sacrifices are worth making for something better to evolve. This hasn't been easy and I know that it won't be easy after he is born but I also know that it will be worth it. And I wouldn't have it any other way.